It may be a short stay.

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It may be a short stay because may not be welcome here anymore but came back because have friends here and don't really want to leave them here. Yeah, it was Maka or Claire. I've taken this time away to mature a little bit and find my own identity, I was upset in the past because thought that nobody liked me and I have problems in thinking that I'm unintelligent, dunce and/ or overally stupid and felt stupid when didn't understand Kitten Slave's rant at the beginning so I performed 'internet suicide'. I had problems in the past, and don't want to apologies for that because I was mind- abused my men and other people, but I will apologies to Kitten Slave, getting overally furious over somebody's opinion isn't the best way to go. ->- That's it, I didn't cosplay before- I was too scared to cosplay even though really wanted to because I had troubles trusting in others. I thought that if I cosplayed, everybody would laugh or walk away or take photos and laugh or something, it sounds pathetic but yeah, that was the truth.

I also want to apologize for causing drama, I should of went to a therapist or a psychologist sooner rather than later and begging people for help when they are going through a rough situation themselves wasn't the smartest.
I'm not going to promise a new start, or a improvement though I am trying my hardest to improve and get mentally stronger. ( I'm up to the last boss in FF4, I never thought that I would get this far .)

I understand that not everybody here likes me, but I came back to CNZ for the important people the friends and to make to Aucklandgeddon and enjoy cosplaying, and CCC parties and etc. I've realized that these forums and the club are for the fun, and not for the drama. If everybody is ticked off with me returning I'll walk away, but yeah wanted to say that have matured and have noticed some things while was gone away. I did have a profile where tried to hide my identity, because I scared that people where going to bomb me if they knew my true identity but a friend suggested that this was the better and more honest thing to do

Uhm, what else to say. / thinking pose *

Drop your PS2 controller on the floor and I'll read your mind... I know you like the Legend of Zelda Series ?!!
Psycho Mantis, Metal Gear Solid joke- Hrmmm. It may be a short stay. 179767

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mmm Psycho Mantis <3

I'm glad you're using 'I's in your sentences now, It makes me smile. Welcome back, yo!

By kelseyketchum. 12/06/10, 01:34 pm

Welcome back :)

By creature124. 12/06/10, 01:35 pm

I second Kiki's sentiment, all those personal pronouns are a good sign. Welcome back!

By Cactiberry. 12/06/10, 01:35 pm

Welcome back! Glad you're back c:

By Lexicon. 12/06/10, 01:36 pm

Welcome back.

Aoide, right?

By Tails. 12/06/10, 01:44 pm

Final boss in FF4! Me too! Welcome back :)

By Kitten Slave. 12/06/10, 01:44 pm

Water under the bridge.
Whatever you did that requires an apology I have forgotten, do not give me cause to remember it, mk?
nodnod

Spread your wings and be free, abandon all that would constrain you and live your life unbound by petty constraints, free of the bondage of delusion and faith.

By azeria. 12/06/10, 01:51 pm

Welcome back n__n

By commandercandyfloss. 12/06/10, 02:04 pm

Welcome back! <3

By fleyer. 12/06/10, 02:10 pm

I read Kittens last comment wrong, no more said.
...

Welcome back, ^^
I third the I's

By riiche-. 12/06/10, 02:42 pm

I wanna go to Auckgeddon too~

Welcome back~

**Guest** Guest

Welcome Back ^^
The Pass is the Pass look to the future

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Kitten Slave wrote:: Water under the bridge.
Whatever you did that requires an apology I have forgotten, do not give me cause to remember it, mk?

Spread your wings and be free, abandon all that would constrain you and live your life unbound by petty constraints, free of the bondage of delusion and faith.

Awh. :3 Your a nice guy, why can't all guys be nice like you ? ( and not all manipulative and meeean. )

Tails wrote:: Final boss in FF4! Me too! Welcome back :)

Your up to Zeromus too ? ^_^ His Big Bang move keeps on killing me in one hit. He's so much harder than Kefka -_-'; Thankyou.

Lexicon wrote:: Welcome back.

Aoide, right?

Yeah it was Aoide and didn't lie in that introduction. I do like Cous Cous and I am really honestly scared of Peacocks and Giffares. I used to have nightmares as a kid whenever a Peacock would raise his feather tail up. -____-

Cactiberry wrote:: Welcome back! Glad you're back c:

Thankyou !

creature124 wrote:: I second Kiki's sentiment, all those personal pronouns are a good sign. Welcome back!

Kiki wrote:: I'm glad you're using 'I's in your sentences now, It makes me smile. Welcome back, yo!

Thanks. Actually it was Midsummer who suggested to start using the 'I' in the sentences so yeah, she's in the hero in that sense. =)

Thanks for the replies everybody, I was scared to come back and read this but now I'm glad that I gained the courage to come online and read the comments posted here. Thankyou. (:

- Random Comment. Fleyer your new avatar is awesome. ^^

By Aikome. 12/06/10, 06:38 pm

Welcome back~! ^ ^ I'm glad you will be coming to Auckgeddon.

By **seraphik**. 13/06/10, 01:03 am

welcome back. (: <3

By sakkaf. 13/06/10, 01:11 am

How many aliases do you have?!?!?

Welcome back anyways :0)

By Number-IX. 13/06/10, 03:11 am

Welcome back! <3333

By LintuwolfWiing. 13/06/10, 04:02 am

Welcome back =D 'I' are good! And happy you is very good =)

Shawn

By Squishy blob. 13/06/10, 07:17 am

Welcome back!

By daydreamer. 13/06/10, 07:37 am

Welcome back Very Happy

By mystix-candy. 13/06/10, 07:48 am

makaaaaaaa <3
welcome back~
you still gonna be my Sonic for Welly next year? :3 chuu~!

By Max Power. 13/06/10, 07:54 am

welcome baaaaaaaaack!! ^_^ Nice to see you again ^^

By Kitten Slave. 13/06/10, 10:12 am

meh, sometimes I wonder how much is nice guy, and how much is me simply unphased by just about anything.
And static once said that I am manipulative enough that I would make a very good woman. Im just not malicious.

All said though, I am strait forward, and at ease with my self. I think it makes for a very interesting combination!

stare

By Re-l. 13/06/10, 11:59 am

~~~~Welcome person that I dont really remember, Its good to have you back?

Kitten Slave wrote:: Water under the bridge.
Whatever you did that requires an apology I have forgotten, do not give me cause to remember it, mk?

Spread your wings and be free, abandon all that would constrain you and live your life unbound by petty constraints, free of the bondage of delusion and faith.

Ne, your DP made me giggle<3
ALSO. Have you ever thought of taking up song writing as a profession?

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